I don’t hate school or any of my lessons actually, but if there is one thing that is my least favourite, it is my French lesson. For all of the years, 7-9 French was compulsory and after that, I was going to give it up. Until an assembly that we had said that universities look for people who have done an Ebacc for their GCSEs which means that you HAVE to do French and at least one of History or Geography as well as all the core subjects. So now I am stuck with French for another two years.
It’s not that bad, It’s just for the past 3 years I haven’t had a good teacher so I am not as fluent as everyone else in the class. I felt really intimidated when the teacher started talking fluent French and I had absolutely no idea about what she was saying and what made it worst was that everyone else was talking back in fluent French.
Our class is pretty small and she asked everyone the same question so when she did ask me I had a rough idea of what I was going to say. However, I get terrified when a teacher asks me a question or puts me on the spot, and I just go red. I hate the fact that I might get a question wrong and even though that’s all part of learning, it makes me feel horrible and embarrassed about myself.
She asked me the second question after the first and I didn’t know what she was saying until she used a few examples and it just made me feel stupid and humiliated.
I don’t like feeling like I am 10 steps behind everyone else, and I would hate to get a bad mark in the GCSEs because that would mean that it was all for nothing. I am really worried about catching up with everyone.