If there was one thing that I struggled with last year the most, it has to be choices. I had all my choices under control, I was going to pick textiles, photography, and history. But then I got a good mark with my geography test and I began to have doubts. I absolutely loved textiles and there was no way I could give that up, especially if I wanted to have that as another career path. But I had recently taken an interest in photography and even saved up and bought a camera. However, what if I did badly in my history.
I need a good humanity mark (history or geography) and I had always loved history ever since I was little and would watch Horrible Histories back to back, but what if I failed, at least if I did Geography as well maybe one of them would have a good mark. In the end, I swapped it for photography and had to push past all those doubts. My theory was that when I was older I could take up photography again maybe as a course, and for now just do it as a hobby.
Now I’m in year 10, photography students are everywhere and I am again starting to doubt my choices. It feels like everyone is doing the course and I even know someone who is swapping to that course. I can’t change now, especially since I have had such a good start on my other subjects, changing would mess up my lessons and timetable. I just really wish that we could do more GCSEs, although that would probably be more pressure. Maybe they should have more clubs.
They had a photography club last year which I joined, but I don’t think that they will do it this year, or if they do It will be for the lower key stage. To be honest, if they had any art club I would probably join, I loved doing art, I just wouldn’t want to do it as a GCSE because then I feel like there would be more pressure on it to look good. Also, I probably wouldn’t consider myself as that good of an artist to do it as a career, it just would have been nice to be able to go and spend time in the art room since only the people who are doing it as a GCSE are allowed in there.
I guess just over the week I have been feeling a little down about my options, and maybe a little jealous of other people’s, I think I am just going to try and dedicate more of my free time to go out and take some pictures with my camera and edit them and also start drawing to take my mind off of it.
I don’t hate school or any of my lessons actually, but if there is one thing that is my least favourite, it is my French lesson. For all of the years, 7-9 French was compulsory and after that, I was going to give it up. Until an assembly that we had said that universities look for people who have done an Ebacc for their GCSEs which means that you HAVE to do French and at least one of History or Geography as well as all the core subjects. So now I am stuck with French for another two years.
It’s not that bad, It’s just for the past 3 years I haven’t had a good teacher so I am not as fluent as everyone else in the class. I felt really intimidated when the teacher started talking fluent French and I had absolutely no idea about what she was saying and what made it worst was that everyone else was talking back in fluent French.
Our class is pretty small and she asked everyone the same question so when she did ask me I had a rough idea of what I was going to say. However, I get terrified when a teacher asks me a question or puts me on the spot, and I just go red. I hate the fact that I might get a question wrong and even though that’s all part of learning, it makes me feel horrible and embarrassed about myself.
She asked me the second question after the first and I didn’t know what she was saying until she used a few examples and it just made me feel stupid and humiliated.
I don’t like feeling like I am 10 steps behind everyone else, and I would hate to get a bad mark in the GCSEs because that would mean that it was all for nothing. I am really worried about catching up with everyone.
It’s only my first few days back and I have already received tons of pieces of homework and haven’t stopped hearing “you have started your GCSE’s, are you scared?” We haven’t done a full week because we came in on Wednesday at a later time. Little odd but it’s so the year 7’s get time on their own.
I am so happy I’m not in year 11 yet, the amount of pressure they put on them is unbelievable, I think that the schools are making too much of a drama out of it which is making it more stressful than it should be.
So far I have started my RS, Geography, Textiles, French, Maths, History, English and Science.
My science is separate but everyone in my year is really smart which means that unless I get a really good mark then I can’t do triple science and that’s what I would really want to do and it would help me if I did do it.
The worst thing is that in almost every lesson I have entered they are constantly saying things like, “We used to do coursework but now we don’t and that’s really bad” or “Now the GCSE’s have this which makes it so hard”. I’m not sure about you but I’m pretty sure that’s the last thing you’re supposed to say to a bunch of nervous year 10’s, especially after they give us these high goals that we have to reach.
Everything is terrifying and I can’t say that I am too happy to be back but I guess I just want to get it all over and done with.
Hello, and Welcome.
I am 14 and I am just about to start my GCSE’s.
This Blog is all about how I cope with these next two years. I will be giving my honest thoughts on everything with all the ins and outs. You don’t have to be doing your GCSE’s to read this blog. You can follow me along my journey just to find out about what it’s like now and the realities on how people cope with studying, but if you are going through GCSE’s then you are welcome to steal ideas and techniques that have worked for me along the way. Just think of me as your GCSE guinea pig.
Obviously, I am not a professional, I have never done this before but I know that for me it would have helped to know what I am about to come across and relating to people’s thoughts on things that I have faced. Also, I wanted to be able to look back on the things I came across and to be able to learn from my mistakes.
First off, there are a few things you must know about me:
- Marks – I am not the bottom of my classes, but I wouldn’t say that I am the top but really that doesn’t matter. Also, I think that the new marking system is really confusing and every school is different. Therefore when I talk about my marks I am going to mark them based on how happy I am with them because that should be the only thing that matters. For example 5/5 – super happy with what I got.
- Studying – I study super hard if I want good marks. I am not one of those people who can go into a test with no revision and get 10/10. I need to study, so expect loads of entries with pictures of my revision. I can not say that I have a perfect revision technique but I usually like pretty colourful notes.
- Future – (I can not predict what I want to do, and although I have an estimation in what I want to do, there might still be changes.) In the future, I would like to go to university and study medicine. I would like to research and find cures.
- Happiness – I am going, to be honest, I am never really ever happy with my marks. I don’t know what it is but I always feel like I could have done better.
- Hobbies – I have a few hobbies such as, I play the piano and I am currently working on grade 3. I read constantly, I absolutely love books. I like sewing which is why I am taking textiles.
- My subjects – The subjects I am taking are: English, Maths, Science, French, RS, History, Geography, French and Textiles.
So now that is all out of the way, I hope you join me on this scary adventure and if you are doing your GCSE’s, Good Luck.