I really don’t want to jinx this but I finally feel that I have reached a fully satisfied state of happiness (touch wood) and I don’t just mean with school work. Obviously, having your work organised in whatever you are doing is important and helpful for being happy, but there are still other important factors as well that no one really goes through when you are stressing about your GCSEs.
Friends. Last year I went through a rough time with friends and now I have finally gotten out of all the toxic friendships that I had and to be honest I feel so much better for it. One of my friends, I used to be really close with her but she always gossiped about things which would make me fall out with my friends, and no matter what I said she would twist around so it made me sound horrible. She would be the cause of most fallouts that I had. I still speak to her but now I don’t tell her anything personal, I guess we just keep to ourselves. My other friend would pretty much cyberbully me. She would pretty much guilt trip me, making everything that happened between us seem like my fault and my fault alone, which now reflecting on it, was not the case at all. She would pick on all the little things about me saying that they were her things and that I had stolen them from her. I don’t really talk to her at all since the last time she had a go at me, I left it, I didn’t apologise and ask her to be my friend again because I finally understood that she was not a friend I needed.
I didn’t say this because I wanted pity, I said this because I wanted anyone else who reads this to think about their friends and their worth. It took me too long to figure out why these friends were bad and now that I have finally found myself a decent friend group where we all respect one and another, I can finally concentrate on the things that actually matter.
I know how hard it is to get rid of those horrible people that are in your life, but trust me once you do it’s worth it. (I know this sounds cheesy but its true!)
So I just wanted to dedicate this post to my real friends who have helped me through those rough times and my one true best friend who stuck by me the whole way through, my Mum.