Revision

What I love about Revision… well I guess my favourite thing must be the colours and pretty notes. That’s why I wanted to sort out all my notes now instead of rushing around later on trying to organise everything and not actually taking any of it in.

What actually works… well that’s completely up to you. I hate it when you tell someone how you revise and they go “oh no that’s the worst way to revise.” It doesn’t matter unless you’re failing all your tests, then you keep doing that. Your method of revision could fail on everyone else in England but that doesn’t make it bad for you. It doesn’t mean that it will fail on everyone.

Personally, I don’t have a set way of revising. I do a mix of things and most of the time it works. I guess I just love it because it’s nice to go over the things you know and make sure you are completely prepared for a test.

I am currently revising for a History, a Geography, a French and a Maths test which isn’t so fun as I have to mush it all in 2 days, however, I will not lose hope. I have made a timetable and set times for me to do things and as long as I stick to that I should hopefully get it all completed.

Thank you for reading my blog and sorry for posting so late.

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Science

This is actually really difficult to talk about since science is the most important to me, but I have received my science test results and I am not proud of them.

I know it’s not the end of the world and I still have a long time before I actually get my GCSE  test results back but it was extremely depressing to receive a really bad grade in general for me and to be four grades down from what I really want for science and then for my science teacher to tell the whole class that it’s ok if we are TWO grades away from what we want and all we have to do is just try harder.

I would have been fine if it was a bad grade for RS or Geography or if my Textiles teacher told me that I needed to try harder. However, that’s not what has happened at all. Instead, I am doing better in those subjects than in the one subject I want so badly to be good at. It’s just so frustrating.  It feels like no matter how hard I try I won’t be able to do what I want to do and no matter how hard I want it, my job is not going to turn out to what I expected and I know that’s not necessarily a bad thing and that’s probably going to happen anyway but it’s still annoying when I have already set my mind on this job.

I would give up any of my other marks to get a really good one in science. The thing that makes it worse is that I KNEW the answers. We went through the test and they were all understandable things or things that I could easily learn but I haven’t learnt it that much. Partly because last year, my science teacher went on maternity leave and I had a supply and I didn’t really learn that much. Also, it wasn’t even the fact that I hadn’t revised because I had. I tried extremely hard to revise and I still missed the bits that were needed in the test. Even though I went through the whole list I missed all the little details that were needed for those extra marks.

I am really disappointed in my work and honestly, really scared that I will have to change what I want to do when I have already set my mind on science.

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Happiness

I really don’t want to jinx this but I finally feel that I have reached a fully satisfied state of happiness (touch wood) and I don’t just mean with school work. Obviously, having your work organised in whatever you are doing is important and helpful for being happy, but there are still other important factors as well that no one really goes through when you are stressing about your GCSEs.

Friends. Last year I went through a rough time with friends and now I have finally gotten out of all the toxic friendships that I had and to be honest I feel so much better for it. One of my friends, I used to be really close with her but she always gossiped about things which would make me fall out with my friends, and no matter what I said she would twist around so it made me sound horrible. She would be the cause of most fallouts that I had. I still speak to her but now I don’t tell her anything personal, I guess we just keep to ourselves. My other friend would pretty much cyberbully me. She would pretty much guilt trip me, making everything that happened between us seem like my fault and my fault alone, which now reflecting on it, was not the case at all. She would pick on all the little things about me saying that they were her things and that I had stolen them from her. I don’t really talk to her at all since the last time she had a go at me, I left it, I didn’t apologise and ask her to be my friend again because I finally understood that she was not a friend I needed.

I didn’t say this because I wanted pity, I said this because I wanted anyone else who reads this to think about their friends and their worth. It took me too long to figure out why these friends were bad and now that I have finally found myself a decent friend group where we all respect one and another, I can finally concentrate on the things that actually matter.

I know how hard it is to get rid of those horrible people that are in your life, but trust me once you do it’s worth it. (I know this sounds cheesy but its true!)

So I just wanted to dedicate this post to my real friends who have helped me through those rough times and my one true best friend who stuck by me the whole way through, my Mum.

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Panic

I was sat at school, and one of my friends said to me, “Hey, did you know —- has already started their GCSE revision” and I said “No” and then they said, “Yeah well they started it last year, I only started mine in the summer holidays” and that’s when it hit me.

The teachers had always said in the assemblies, “Don’t leave your revision to the last minute” But when is the last minute? So I panicked. I thought that I was really behind everyone else and it just made me panic. Therefore making me go out and by about 8 folders and highlighters and promise myself that I will write up all my notes over the weekend.

I have to admit, it was really nice once I had set out all my folders on my shelves and labelled them and also to know that my notes will be written up soon. I know that I still have ‘loads of time’ but trust me, the past 3 years have flown by and I am not letting that happen with my GCSEs.

However, I had not completely comprehended the amount of writing up I had told myself to do over the weekend and add that to my 7 pieces of homework, 2 tests, not knowing if my books are at home and the family coming round, I very much doubt I will accomplish it, BUT as you all will know from my first post, I won’t give it up without a fight. Here come a few late nights. Wish me luck.

The past few weeks have been a bit stressful. I have had drinks flooding my bag, an open evening which I promised to help out with and trying to keep up with my timetable that I set myself last week… but that does lead me on to my next thing.

I managed to complete my timetable/ to do list…. yay (balloons and confetti) Woop Woop. And I am going to tell you what I used. (That’s right, I’m actually going to say something helpful instead of complaining.) An app that I have really enjoyed using is ‘Wunderlist’ There was something so satisfying with making myself goals and ticking them off, and I really recommend it. It helped me so much and I feel happy even though I had a pond in my bag in the middle of the week. 🙂

I hope you all had an amazing week

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Time

As much as I keep telling myself to get on with things, or do these things this week, I can never get round to doing it. I always seem to be busy and by the time it’s Sunday I am looking back on the week thinking about what I could have done better.

Like for instance, a diet. I had a goal for this year to stay fit and eat healthily but I just can’t stick to it, or even my hobbies that I love to do, I can never seem to find the time to do it. Weeks are flying by and I am scared that I will be the same with my Revision for GCSEs so I need to practice. So far I have tried goals for the week and timetables to follow but there is so much that I want to do that I never seem to be able to do any of it.

At the moment I am trying to write a book, but I have to be in the mood to write and I just never seem to have the time to do it. I’m not really a busy person, most the time it will be just me sat in front of the TV and before I know it, it’s dinner time and I am going to bed. So I need to do something and change this quickly.

This week I am going to try a list of goals, I think this is probably the best way to go about things and also I am going to write my goals on here and tell you next week how it goes. Wish me luck! My goals for this week are:

  • Complete a chapter of a book
  • Take some photos (This is really important for me and I explained why in my last blog post)
  • Practice the Piano for at least 3 hours over the week

Okay, so that’s only 3 goals so I should definitely be able to complete it for this week. Have any of you struggled with finding time for your hobbies? and if so do you have any advice?

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Photography vs Geography

If there was one thing that I struggled with last year the most, it has to be choices. I had all my choices under control, I was going to pick textiles, photography, and history. But then I got a good mark with my geography test and I began to have doubts. I absolutely loved textiles and there was no way I could give that up, especially if I wanted to have that as another career path. But I had recently taken an interest in photography and even saved up and bought a camera. However, what if I did badly in my history.

I need a good humanity mark (history or geography) and I had always loved history ever since I was little and would watch Horrible Histories back to back, but what if I failed, at least if I did Geography as well maybe one of them would have a good mark. In the end, I swapped it for photography and had to push past all those doubts. My theory was that when I was older I could take up photography again maybe as a course, and for now just do it as a hobby.

Now I’m in year 10, photography students are everywhere and I am again starting to doubt my choices. It feels like everyone is doing the course and I even know someone who is swapping to that course.  I can’t change now, especially since I have had such a good start on my other subjects, changing would mess up my lessons and timetable. I just really wish that we could do more GCSEs, although that would probably be more pressure. Maybe they should have more clubs.

They had a photography club last year which I joined, but I don’t think that they will do it this year, or if they do It will be for the lower key stage. To be honest, if they had any art club I would probably join, I loved doing art, I just wouldn’t want to do it as a GCSE because then I feel like there would be more pressure on it to look good. Also, I probably wouldn’t consider myself as that good of an artist to do it as a career, it just would have been nice to be able to go and spend time in the art room since only the people who are doing it as a GCSE are allowed in there.

I guess just over the week I have been feeling a little down about my options, and maybe a little jealous of other people’s, I think I am just going to try and dedicate more of my free time to go out and take some pictures with my camera and edit them and also start drawing to take my mind off of it.

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French

I don’t hate school or any of my lessons actually, but if there is one thing that is my least favourite, it is my French lesson. For all of the years, 7-9 French was compulsory and after that, I was going to give it up. Until an assembly that we had said that universities look for people who have done an Ebacc for their GCSEs which means that you HAVE to do French and at least one of History or Geography as well as all the core subjects. So now I am stuck with French for another two years.

It’s not that bad, It’s just for the past 3 years I haven’t had a good teacher so I am not as fluent as everyone else in the class. I felt really intimidated when the teacher started talking fluent French and I had absolutely no idea about what she was saying and what made it worst was that everyone else was talking back in fluent French.

Our class is pretty small and she asked everyone the same question so when she did ask me I had a rough idea of what I was going to say. However, I get terrified when a teacher asks me a question or puts me on the spot, and I just go red. I hate the fact that I might get a question wrong and even though that’s all part of learning, it makes me feel horrible and embarrassed about myself.

She asked me the second question after the first and I didn’t know what she was saying until she used a few examples and it just made me feel stupid and humiliated.

I don’t like feeling like I am 10 steps behind everyone else, and I would hate to get a bad mark in the GCSEs because that would mean that it was all for nothing. I am really worried about catching up with everyone.

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