Happiness

I really don’t want to jinx this but I finally feel that I have reached a fully satisfied state of happiness (touch wood) and I don’t just mean with school work. Obviously, having your work organised in whatever you are doing is important and helpful for being happy, but there are still other important factors as well that no one really goes through when you are stressing about your GCSEs.

Friends. Last year I went through a rough time with friends and now I have finally gotten out of all the toxic friendships that I had and to be honest I feel so much better for it. One of my friends, I used to be really close with her but she always gossiped about things which would make me fall out with my friends, and no matter what I said she would twist around so it made me sound horrible. She would be the cause of most fallouts that I had. I still speak to her but now I don’t tell her anything personal, I guess we just keep to ourselves. My other friend would pretty much cyberbully me. She would pretty much guilt trip me, making everything that happened between us seem like my fault and my fault alone, which now reflecting on it, was not the case at all. She would pick on all the little things about me saying that they were her things and that I had stolen them from her. I don’t really talk to her at all since the last time she had a go at me, I left it, I didn’t apologise and ask her to be my friend again because I finally understood that she was not a friend I needed.

I didn’t say this because I wanted pity, I said this because I wanted anyone else who reads this to think about their friends and their worth. It took me too long to figure out why these friends were bad and now that I have finally found myself a decent friend group where we all respect one and another, I can finally concentrate on the things that actually matter.

I know how hard it is to get rid of those horrible people that are in your life, but trust me once you do it’s worth it. (I know this sounds cheesy but its true!)

So I just wanted to dedicate this post to my real friends who have helped me through those rough times and my one true best friend who stuck by me the whole way through, my Mum.

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Panic

I was sat at school, and one of my friends said to me, “Hey, did you know —- has already started their GCSE revision” and I said “No” and then they said, “Yeah well they started it last year, I only started mine in the summer holidays” and that’s when it hit me.

The teachers had always said in the assemblies, “Don’t leave your revision to the last minute” But when is the last minute? So I panicked. I thought that I was really behind everyone else and it just made me panic. Therefore making me go out and by about 8 folders and highlighters and promise myself that I will write up all my notes over the weekend.

I have to admit, it was really nice once I had set out all my folders on my shelves and labelled them and also to know that my notes will be written up soon. I know that I still have ‘loads of time’ but trust me, the past 3 years have flown by and I am not letting that happen with my GCSEs.

However, I had not completely comprehended the amount of writing up I had told myself to do over the weekend and add that to my 7 pieces of homework, 2 tests, not knowing if my books are at home and the family coming round, I very much doubt I will accomplish it, BUT as you all will know from my first post, I won’t give it up without a fight. Here come a few late nights. Wish me luck.

The past few weeks have been a bit stressful. I have had drinks flooding my bag, an open evening which I promised to help out with and trying to keep up with my timetable that I set myself last week… but that does lead me on to my next thing.

I managed to complete my timetable/ to do list…. yay (balloons and confetti) Woop Woop. And I am going to tell you what I used. (That’s right, I’m actually going to say something helpful instead of complaining.) An app that I have really enjoyed using is ‘Wunderlist’ There was something so satisfying with making myself goals and ticking them off, and I really recommend it. It helped me so much and I feel happy even though I had a pond in my bag in the middle of the week. 🙂

I hope you all had an amazing week

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Time

As much as I keep telling myself to get on with things, or do these things this week, I can never get round to doing it. I always seem to be busy and by the time it’s Sunday I am looking back on the week thinking about what I could have done better.

Like for instance, a diet. I had a goal for this year to stay fit and eat healthily but I just can’t stick to it, or even my hobbies that I love to do, I can never seem to find the time to do it. Weeks are flying by and I am scared that I will be the same with my Revision for GCSEs so I need to practice. So far I have tried goals for the week and timetables to follow but there is so much that I want to do that I never seem to be able to do any of it.

At the moment I am trying to write a book, but I have to be in the mood to write and I just never seem to have the time to do it. I’m not really a busy person, most the time it will be just me sat in front of the TV and before I know it, it’s dinner time and I am going to bed. So I need to do something and change this quickly.

This week I am going to try a list of goals, I think this is probably the best way to go about things and also I am going to write my goals on here and tell you next week how it goes. Wish me luck! My goals for this week are:

  • Complete a chapter of a book
  • Take some photos (This is really important for me and I explained why in my last blog post)
  • Practice the Piano for at least 3 hours over the week

Okay, so that’s only 3 goals so I should definitely be able to complete it for this week. Have any of you struggled with finding time for your hobbies? and if so do you have any advice?

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French

I don’t hate school or any of my lessons actually, but if there is one thing that is my least favourite, it is my French lesson. For all of the years, 7-9 French was compulsory and after that, I was going to give it up. Until an assembly that we had said that universities look for people who have done an Ebacc for their GCSEs which means that you HAVE to do French and at least one of History or Geography as well as all the core subjects. So now I am stuck with French for another two years.

It’s not that bad, It’s just for the past 3 years I haven’t had a good teacher so I am not as fluent as everyone else in the class. I felt really intimidated when the teacher started talking fluent French and I had absolutely no idea about what she was saying and what made it worst was that everyone else was talking back in fluent French.

Our class is pretty small and she asked everyone the same question so when she did ask me I had a rough idea of what I was going to say. However, I get terrified when a teacher asks me a question or puts me on the spot, and I just go red. I hate the fact that I might get a question wrong and even though that’s all part of learning, it makes me feel horrible and embarrassed about myself.

She asked me the second question after the first and I didn’t know what she was saying until she used a few examples and it just made me feel stupid and humiliated.

I don’t like feeling like I am 10 steps behind everyone else, and I would hate to get a bad mark in the GCSEs because that would mean that it was all for nothing. I am really worried about catching up with everyone.

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First Few Days Back

It’s only my first few days back and I have already received tons of pieces of homework and haven’t stopped hearing “you have started your GCSE’s, are you scared?” We haven’t done a full week because we came in on Wednesday at a later time. Little odd but it’s so the year 7’s get time on their own.

I am so happy I’m not in year 11 yet, the amount of pressure they put on them is unbelievable, I think that the schools are making too much of a drama out of it which is making it more stressful than it should be.

So far I have started my RS, Geography, Textiles, French, Maths, History, English and Science.

My science is separate but everyone in my year is really smart which means that unless I get a really good mark then I can’t do triple science and that’s what I would really want to do and it would help me if I did do it.

The worst thing is that in almost every lesson I have entered they are constantly saying things like, “We used to do coursework but now we don’t and that’s really bad” or “Now the GCSE’s have this which makes it so hard”. I’m not sure about you but I’m pretty sure that’s the last thing you’re supposed to say to a bunch of nervous year 10’s, especially after they give us these high goals that we have to reach.

Everything is terrifying and I can’t say that I am too happy to be back but I guess I just want to get it all over and done with.

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The Beginning

Hello, and Welcome.

I am 14 and I am just about to start my GCSE’s.

This Blog is all about how I cope with these next two years. I will be giving my honest thoughts on everything with all the ins and outs. You don’t have to be doing your GCSE’s to read this blog. You can follow me along my journey just to find out about what it’s like now and the realities on how people cope with studying, but if you are going through GCSE’s then you are welcome to steal ideas and techniques that have worked for me along the way. Just think of me as your GCSE guinea pig.

Obviously, I am not a professional, I have never done this before but I know that for me it would have helped to know what I am about to come across and relating to people’s thoughts on things that I have faced.  Also, I wanted to be able to look back on the things I came across and to be able to learn from my mistakes.

First off, there are a few things you must know about me:

  • Marks – I am not the bottom of my classes, but I wouldn’t say that I am the top but really that doesn’t matter. Also, I think that the new marking system is really confusing and every school is different. Therefore when I talk about my marks I am going to mark them based on how happy I am with them because that should be the only thing that matters. For example 5/5 – super happy with what I got.
  • Studying – I study super hard if I want good marks. I am not one of those people who can go into a test with no revision and get 10/10. I need to study, so expect loads of entries with pictures of my revision. I can not say that I have a perfect revision technique but I usually like pretty colourful notes.
  • Future – (I can not predict what I want to do, and although I have an estimation in what I want to do, there might still be changes.) In the future, I would like to go to university and study medicine. I would like to research and find cures.
  • Happiness – I am going, to be honest, I am never really ever happy with my marks. I don’t know what it is but I always feel like I could have done better.
  • Hobbies – I have a few hobbies such as, I play the piano and I am currently working on grade 3. I read constantly, I absolutely love books. I like sewing which is why I am taking textiles.
  • My subjects – The subjects I am taking are: English, Maths, Science, French, RS, History, Geography, French and Textiles.

So now that is all out of the way, I hope you join me on this scary adventure and if you are doing your GCSE’s, Good Luck.

Thanks,

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